work today was better than it's been, because my work neighbor, grace, has warmed up to me, and because i knew what to do. i'm basically a glorified intern at this point so it's pretty stupid shit but at least i can do it well. i didnt get to a meeting because i had group therapy after work and then my friend valerie's art exhibit at the brooklyn museum. group was stressful because i told them about my job and dr hapworth said "so it's a recovery job" and i said no, this is just what i'm going to do. stupid shit. it's what i plan on doing. because i'm dumb. and have no passions or aspirations. that set off a fun conversation (sarcasm). bleh.
luckily i ran into katie at the exhibit and she said some things that really helped. she said that knitting is her passion (she makes awesome masks) but that she only started two years ago. that after she got sober she tried a bunch of things until she found it. so maybe there is hope for me yet.
maybe. i'm not going to hold my breath.
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